Focus.....
Ang hirap mag sulat sa blog, nakakatamad. parang pointless.
Here i go.......
Beating myself up again........
Thinking no one cares, that no one understands.....
But the only one who doesn't understand is me....
Ang hirap ng ganito, pag wala ka talgang magawa. Nagiging outlet tuloy ng galit ko yung blog. For all my frustrations, all my pain, ang blog ang inilalabasan. Pero bakit dito lang? Bakit di na lang ako gumalaw? Kasi siguro, ang pinaka nakakainis na sagot...........nahihiya ako. Pano na kaya pag malaki ako? Puro na lang "ayoko, nahihiya ako eh...". Sinisira ko ang sarili ko. nagsasayang ako ng oras ng kakasulat because i'm too damn lazy to do anything about it. Nakaka inis na tuloy.
Dati naman di ako ganito eh, maayos naman ako makipaginteract, makipag socialise if you will. Pero buong first first year ko dun(if you didn't know, nag repeat ako), all i ever wished was to be invisible to my class yet liked at the same time. why? KASI MGA GAGO NAGING KAKLASE KO NOON, puro mga stuck-up rich kids na may set mentality na "if your not rich, if you don't live in outrageously big houses, if you don't own designer clothes, if you still use a 3310(6600 na ako ngayon) if you don't live in posh subdivisions, if you didn't come from the AGS, if your not blah blah blah, in short, if your not like us, then who are you to be in this class? Di naman sila lahat ganun but you get my point. Sobrang ibang iba sa T.U. where PEOPLE WERE NICE AND DECENT. "Protestante ka lang....." PUTANGINA, PATI BA NAMAN RELIHIYON KO PAPAKILAMAN NILA!!!!! Aba, parang sarap sabihin na kung "sino ba sila para sabihin yon. galing mo ring katoliko ano?" Nasayang tuloy yung 60T ko non, not to mention baon and transpo. I was smart naman, in fact ako pa nga yung pinaka mataas sa entrance exam namin sa class. But it was all wasted. This was AHS2005, the "problem" batch sabi ng mga teachers. Mamatay sana silang lahat...(up to date, there was only one person i hated more and a lot of people, especially my parents who know who and why i'll dwell on that sometime else)
Here i go.......
Beating myself up again........
Thinking no one cares, that no one understands.....
But the only one who doesn't understand is me....
Ang hirap ng ganito, pag wala ka talgang magawa. Nagiging outlet tuloy ng galit ko yung blog. For all my frustrations, all my pain, ang blog ang inilalabasan. Pero bakit dito lang? Bakit di na lang ako gumalaw? Kasi siguro, ang pinaka nakakainis na sagot...........nahihiya ako. Pano na kaya pag malaki ako? Puro na lang "ayoko, nahihiya ako eh...". Sinisira ko ang sarili ko. nagsasayang ako ng oras ng kakasulat because i'm too damn lazy to do anything about it. Nakaka inis na tuloy.
Dati naman di ako ganito eh, maayos naman ako makipaginteract, makipag socialise if you will. Pero buong first first year ko dun(if you didn't know, nag repeat ako), all i ever wished was to be invisible to my class yet liked at the same time. why? KASI MGA GAGO NAGING KAKLASE KO NOON, puro mga stuck-up rich kids na may set mentality na "if your not rich, if you don't live in outrageously big houses, if you don't own designer clothes, if you still use a 3310(6600 na ako ngayon) if you don't live in posh subdivisions, if you didn't come from the AGS, if your not blah blah blah, in short, if your not like us, then who are you to be in this class? Di naman sila lahat ganun but you get my point. Sobrang ibang iba sa T.U. where PEOPLE WERE NICE AND DECENT. "Protestante ka lang....." PUTANGINA, PATI BA NAMAN RELIHIYON KO PAPAKILAMAN NILA!!!!! Aba, parang sarap sabihin na kung "sino ba sila para sabihin yon. galing mo ring katoliko ano?" Nasayang tuloy yung 60T ko non, not to mention baon and transpo. I was smart naman, in fact ako pa nga yung pinaka mataas sa entrance exam namin sa class. But it was all wasted. This was AHS2005, the "problem" batch sabi ng mga teachers. Mamatay sana silang lahat...(up to date, there was only one person i hated more and a lot of people, especially my parents who know who and why i'll dwell on that sometime else)
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