Akala ko pa naman...

elo! eto nanaman ako, nagtatanong pa rin... Akala ko, i really liked giel, but now i realized na hindi na pala in the same way as before. It was probably just a crush fueled by infatuation, but with just enough genuine affection to make me really think about it. Dati pa akong nagdududa sa feelings ko, pero i kept pushing them away kasi i wanted the feeling to remain. I had become obsessed... haha. Pero now, i'm back into my self-searching, only with less self-angst(di ko na kailangan yon, di naman pala nakakatulong). I decided to once again ask myself, "Ano ba talaga gusto ko with my future?", meaning what do i really want in my love life? Right now, I have concluded na: 1.Yes, i really do like Giel, but not yet as anything closer than a friend. 2. Yes, i do want someone to give the immense love i have kept for all these years(nabigyan ko na yung iba). 3. No, i am not yet ready for a serious commitment but, 4. I do want to develop a better friendship with her, kasi so far i haven't been a good friend to her. So, in closing this entry, gusto ko munang sabihin na "I actually do love you Giel, but only as a friend. And I want to love you as i love all of my friends. Na realize ko lang yun ngayon. hehe.

"Know thyself"-Socrates